Mr Chan

He who never keeps mum
Thinks he's got us under his thumb
Die lah! Die lah! Here's a lump!
Too bad we're not so dumb

The way he acts
You’d think he's mad
Sometimes we don't react
Most times we think -
Please shut your trap!

More than once in a while
He kicks up a big fuss
Over something so mild
What a pain in the arse

When he gets real obstinate
We pity his poor subordinates
They put up with his smoking
His spluttering and constant nagging

His teeth, his noise
His chameleon hair
Those with poise
It’s no wonder they stare!

But sometimes he's really funny
And does things out of the ordinary
That’s when we truly appreciate
The difference ignorance can make

19/2/04

U fucked my computer, sped away from here
Now does that seem slightly familiar
I fucked up your life, sped away from the basement
I wish i could say, look now we're even
The truth is my computer was gone before u came
Just like my life, already screwed, filled with shame
In a way I ought to thank you
U made my new yr resolution come true
I'm alone now, no one by my side
I don't have anything more to hide
I'm gonna live my life with my head held high
This i promise u i'd try
Don't wanna see u behind closed doors either
Want u to take me out and be seen together
I want to take that sick feeling in ur guts away
If u'd only give me a chance some day

18/2/04

Are you feeling better...
Can u smile or r u still bitter
Think I managed a laugh or two today
I'm not really ok but that's just my way
Are these rhymes freaking u out
I do this when I can't cry out loud
Every little thing reminds me of u
Sad songs, cigarette smells, orange juice too
Mom asked me what is it I keep writing
Poetry, i said, while she walked away disbelieving
Really I have no wish to fuck up ur life
I simply can't get u out of my mind
Happiness is a little purring Tiger
with his paws like neoprene on my finger
Oophs I've gone off track again
Its quite difficult to concentrate and be sane
There r other things I should worry about now
Like should i pierce my belly, would I look like a cow
Maybe all I can give is not enough
But I'd really love to make u laugh
Maybe u'd forgive me, just dunno when
Please call when u can, I'll always be ur friend

17/2/04

Did the best I could
Gave all I thought I should
Still u ran away
Honestly thought u'd stay

All I can think of is how to explain
How to make u understand
Anything to take away this pain
Still wish u were here to hold my hand

I need to be strong
I have to leave u alone
I need to stop thinking all night long
And stop yearning for your name on my phone

My retribution, just desserts
For wanting the cake I didnt deserve
I dunno the way to show my regrets to you
I can't find words to tell u my heart is true

Erm...

I love you so much
From the botom of my heart
I melt at your touch
And the smell of your farts

Love is blind
At times even unkind
But I will always find
Happiness in a pint

Reminder

Don't be a fool
Don't be an ingrate
Don't regret
Only when they're all dead
For granted, i shouldn't take
My faith, I must not shake
Love more, for god's sake!

Despair

Why this pain still?
Why these sighs, this weak will?
Why this sickening, sinking feel,
In this heart, when it's nothing new?
Helpless hands, hopeless despair!
These are the wounds I can never repair!

Blinded

Outside sunshine and moonbeams
A treacherous heart resides
I'm not really what I seem
How can u tell all that's inside

Have you been blinded by Cupid's wings
Cast your pride and judgement to the winds

Can you see me for what I am
Look into my heart and take my hand

Will you never stop your sweet carress!
Show me the heaven I could yet possess

14/5/03

fathom the depth of my sorrow
off the rails out of control
i live my life
i spin my lies
round and round and round and round

i'm so tired darling
i need a rest
dun need all these fucking stress
tell me darling
what are u trying to catch?
for me to say, hey u've met ur match?

Petty Money

I lost money
Thats a little bit funny
Been told I should be careful
Others think of me a fool
Its only a hundred and thirty
I wonder who's fingers r so dirty
Should have taken all there was
Now I have to pay what was lost